2004-05-16 - 1:00 a.m.
Okay, so tonight I'm sitting with four of my best friends in the world, two couples, and I feel left behind. They are all in this intimate place with their partners, and I am still little Emily, young, naive, and still a little girl. There's a line seperating us now. In way there always has been. I've always felt like the little girl. not just with them, but always. Sometimes I feel as if I don't know who I really am. And if I'm being honest with myself, I am feeling like a sad, mopy single girl right now. I'm happy with myself, but sometimes I can't help but wonder what's so wrong with me that I can't find a boyfriend. I realize I'm not looking very hard, but I don't know, I just don't know what to do.
