2003-04-06 - 7:52 p.m.
I'm all about the lists right now, so today we are gonna start off with a "Things Emily loves about herself" Because I'm not narcissitic or shallow or selfish or anything.
1. I love how I can sit down when I get back to my dorm, tell myself that I'm gonna get straight to my homework, and then spend the next hour messing around with the font and color of my aol.
2. I love how I spend more time putting together my profile on my AIM than I do on my theory homework.
3. I love how I can talk the whole way through movies I love because I know a ridiculously huge amount of information about them.
4. I love my constant obsession over everything that I love. Mainly because it spreads to all areas of my life!
5. I love my taste in clothing, movies, music, interior decorating. . .in everything! Mainly because I have NONE!
Now to be a little more serious. . .
I really have learned a lot about myself this year. I've learned aobut what I need and what I don't. I feel so much more secure and confident in myself. I'm more comfortable with my emotions now. I've also learned that sometimes what you think is the right thing to do, is not always right...sometimes you have to let go of your responsibilities. I am also more confirmed in my need for alone time...I love all of my friends on campus, but sometimes I need a break from them.
I had a big reflection weekend, in case you couldn't tell. I thought I was going to go on this nice little trip that my family takes every year, and I was really upset when it didn't work out. But I guess that's okay, because I spent most of my weekend by myself, really thinking about things. Also being by myself this weekend will prepare me for the week ahead...it's gonna be long, stressful and filled with people. But I'll be able to handle it now.
Okay, guys wish me luck this week, I've got a lot going on. Here's yet another list for you enjoyment.
1. MIT/SAI bake sale. We have to do a fundraiser, and we each have to raise ten dollars...I don't know why, something to do with initiation. This is Monday and Tuesday.
2. Outline for persuasive speech, due Tuesday...not sure what I want to talk aobut yet, so that's worrying me.
3. MIT meeting Tuesday night, it'll be a busy one because we lost a meeting last week cuz of the MIT skit.
4. Big piano test Tuesday...MUST REMEMBER TO PRACTICE.
5. Wednesday is a big day. At eleven I work with Barbra Briner-Jones and Dr. Hartig for a half an hour to start on my solo. At one I go in for my real lesson that week...yippee for me, I get to get yelled at TWICE in one day by Dr. H...:0!
6. There is NOOOOO....number six.
7. Friday is Initiation for SAI!! This will be exciting, but also, I have a feeling, emotionally exhausting. I am definitely very excited for it though.
8. On Saturday I work with Barbra again on my solo...joy.
9. Sunday is the Wind Ensemble concert. No biggie, but still. I don't think my family will be there because it's Palm Sunday...and they were roaming about this weekend...so no family for me until the end of school...which is sad for me because I miss them and would like to see them again.
10. Wind Ensemble Tour is Mon-Weds of NEXT week...looking forward to it, but not since I will be missing three days of class..that I can not afford to miss because I've been sick alot this semester..shit.
11. Thursday of next week when we get back is clarinet studio recital concert, and symphony band concert...ON THE SAME NIGHT...it's madness! Plus I'll be wearing black for about FIVE STRAIGHT DAYS!
I just realized that after all of the aforementioned shit is done, I will only have two weeks of school left....FUCK ME!! I need to get on the ball.
